As this blog, and my writing ventures turn the corner after
over ten years of essays, short stories and vignettes I sat down to reflect
back and think about what Classical Angler means in both the literary sense,
and the bigger picture of what the writing is stating. I also wanted to detail
the creative process as well. How to do this?
I decided to interview myself.
Happy anniversary! Many have found a richer world of
fly-fishing and inspiration here. I hope for much more. Writing, like a fine
wine gets richer with age.
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Question (Q): “Introduce yourself and describe your work.”
Erik Helm proprietor of Classical Angler fly-fishing and the
writer best known for being long-winded… just kidding… I live in the Driftless
region of Wisconsin where I guide anglers for trout and teach fly-fishing
classes and schools, produce fly-fishing related leather craft, and write the
Classical Angler Blog of literary explorations into fly-fishing.
I started all this in 2008. ‘Classical Angler’ came from a
study of classical music I was undertaking on my own at the time, as well as an
appreciation of ‘Classic’ fly-fishing… an era roughly from the late 19th
century through the 1970s… the time of the great authors, books, and magazine
articles. Sounds all planned out, but I really had no idea it would blossom
into a side-hobby of writing short stories and essays. Some friend or another
just suggested I start a blog. What’s that? I thought. Well, beginnings are
sometimes tender and innocent things like childhood. The future is an open
book, and you never know where it will go or take you.
I think of my writing as a blending of examination,
philosophy, humor, nature and the essential spirit of fly-fishing as a sort of
literary sport if you will… I don’t want to just write ‘How to’ or ‘Where to
go’ articles. For me writing is all about the creative process; finding art and
meaning in words and expression of the greater meanings of life seen through
the looking glass of the sport of angling.
I see somewhat of a vacuum out there in this genre. Articles
and books with actual literary content have been on the decline for the last 40
years, and I miss reading the stories and articles in the outdoor magazines I
picked out of my dad’s library and curled up with for hours on the floor before
the fireplace in long dark winters. Later, after writing for several years
(sometimes appalling poorly), I started collecting classic angling books and
articles by such authors as McQuarrie, Gingrich, Lyons, Haig-Brown, Atherton
and many others, and discovered a sort of symbiosis between my ideas and
thoughts and their explorations… an echo with or of what I was trying to say
and how I was trying to say it… an affirmation at least for me from a past
where creative writing could stand on its own without as many imposed
limitations of commercialism. My blog began to provide the perfect vehicle for
that freedom of expression. Freedom means not having to confine the realm of
artistic expression to less than 750 words or something like having a picture
inserted between each paragraph to hold attention span.
Q. “Can you describe your creative process?”
(Chuckling and shaking head while smiling)… Well… I think
each process is unique- each work different in its journey. I guess if I had to
categorize them, they would fit into several vague paths…
Some works, like ‘Ephemeral’, are like giving birth. The
idea is born and it just grows until it comes out all raw and screaming and
crying and shouting with joy. The works that develop like that often require
little note-taking or planning. Instead, they are born on the spot like Jazz
Improv, and are both exhausting and exhilarating to write. Also, with pieces of
this type I don’t like to disturb them by over-editing afterwards. The mood, mindset,
or passion of the voice of the piece… its soul… if that doesn’t sound too
hokey, can be upset and actually ruined by afterthought and picking and poking
about. I would almost rather scrap a piece entirely, which does get done, than
ruin the fluid thought process which makes it unique. Some pieces are very
unique… like something cooked up on the stove without any recipe, and should not be
fussed with by adding, subtracting, or even trying to coax it in a different
direction. Each piece has a growth process that should not have me forcing any
pre-conceived ideas upon it. Each word, sentence, or paragraph effects the one
following… each turn bringing new discoveries and influencing new thoughts and
ideas. I guess every artist has a different method… Mozart wrote everything
down straight out of his head with little or no corrections. He saw and heard
the piece in his mind. Beethoven, on the other hand was a meticulous editor,
scribbling and erasing and adding and annotating until his scores were often
notoriously undecipherable, yet they both produced beauty.
I have had several pieces take me a month or more of
note-taking on thoughts and ideas before I actually sat down and wrote the
piece… so yea… there are endless paths to the fruition of an idea. It all starts
with the idea… the inspiration. Sometimes those ideas came to me all at once…
at 3 in the morning while lying in bed, or while fishing or taking a nature
walk. Sometimes the ideas are a dead-end or a failure. I keep several notebooks
full of ideas for essays and writing. On occasion I will page through them and
find a neat idea that remained an orphan and adopt or merge it with something
else and it turns out better after sitting a year on the back burner. I guess
one never knows…
One trap I have fallen into several times is taking too big
a bite or too wide a view of a subject. Often the ideas get all muddled up and
clarity is lost. It’s like a soup with one too many ingredients… it loses its
unique taste trying to be too much…. Too many blended ideas and the
individuality is sacrificed. I usually try to scrap these and approach them
later, but most of my works, including the short stories are actually composed
or written in one session at the computer.
Q. “Why the essay? Why do you find this so compelling versus
developing much longer pieces?”
Great question! I guess I feel that the essay, long or
short, offers a completion, a framing if you will, of an idea, and is
accessible to the reader. I like to compel thought with my writing and weave
themes in a more artistic expression than possible with chapters or some other
format. Maybe it has to do with my personal creative style, but I like to
create and then more on to contemplate another work or creation. The essay
allows the writer to examine things and proffer an argument even if it is
hidden. Often my vignettes have hidden subject matters. Take ‘Gas Station
Flies’ for example… ostensibly a piece about history and nostalgia, the hidden
subject emerges as the author as a child peeping through the trees with his
father at a famous river… it is a piece on growing up… a piece about memories
and change. These themes sometimes emerge from nowhere as I am writing… and I
love that process! I like not knowing! Let the piece tell me what it is all
about. Sometimes the actual subject matter shifts right before my eyes. I find
that so amazing and fulfilling… at least when it works…
Q. “And the short stories?”
The short stories by necessity are far more planned. I
usually have a framework written down as to the theme or themes and where I
want it to begin and end… the subject too and some of the detours, but the
writing process still tends to be eclectic. I do like to add mystery and a bit
of horror at times as well as local history. It seems to draw in the reader when
a story begins innocently enough, but then becomes far more than one thought
after the first few paragraphs. I am a very avid reader of the genre of the
short story, especially 19th century and early 20th
century authors such as H.H. Munro, Somerset Maugham, and others like Checkhov
who have the amazing talent to start their stories not always at a definable
point or beginning, but in the middle of nowhere and travel through the story
in non-linear directions. My chosen wider subject matter, that of angling, can
only accept so much pushing at the boundaries of convention, and I do try to
push as hard as I can sometimes. I think convention is dull or boring…
repetitive and stale. How many stories can you read where a man catches a fish?
Hemingway pretty much owns that! But… what about a story with masked themes
where the reader forgets all about the fish? That speaks to me.
Q. “I notice you switch voices and moods in your writing
between pieces. Is there a reason for that?”
All artist are nuts! (Laughs) or just human…
Well… the mood of the writer and their voice can change…
must change I believe. Many writers in a genre like this have one established
voice, be it humor, philosophical, romantic, serious, happy or sad. Established
voices work. They are predictable. Read some authors out there and after awhile
one becomes kind of lost. Each piece is the same. We go fishing, then a
reflection and philosophical detour, we come back to the fishing, another
reflection, a laugh, and a predictable conclusion. I like to vary the mood. I
never want to write two similar pieces in a row. Two pieces of humor for
example… I try to include a different tonality in each piece. I often write to
a background of classical music, and choose the music or composer based on the
piece I am trying to develop. For passion I might play Beethoven, for jazz
madness… Mahler comes to mind… Poetic subtlety… Bach… We are getting back to my
pre-natal stages of development as a writer. Why, by accident I coined the term
‘Classical Angler’… because the various moods and passions govern music and our
interpretation of music. They mimic our humanity. Instrumental music mimics the
human voice that expresses our existence. Often I find writing about
fly-fishing as satisfying or even more so than actually going fishing. When
ideas flow like rivers the catch becomes more permanent and the journey is its
own reward. Fishing can often be kind of one-dimensional, but writing can be
almost four-dimensional… More freedom to go beyond the rivers into our own
existential being…
Experiences on the stream have moods as well: frustration,
elation, reflection, joy, wonder at nature, fear of nature, centering and
mindfulness…The themes I develop should reflect those moods if crafted
properly. Formulaic writing may be successful in many instances, but it bores
me.
Q. “What are some of your favorite pieces you have written?”
The next one! (smiling)
Seriously… I don’t know. What I like and what the reader
likes are often very different. Some pieces stand out to me, but fail to
inspire the reader or miss the mark. I aim too high or too low or simply
obscure too much… I am told, or have been told that I am at my best from or in
a free-form mode… like jazz. I like ‘Dear Theo’ for that reason… for its sheer
uniqueness of subject matter and framing. One current author wrote me
concerning it that he thought it “Amazingly inventive.” “The Stand” is possible
my favorite short story, and short and eclectic pieces like “Depression and
Blue Winged Olives” keep coming back to me as compelling. I sometimes wonder
what went into it… what drove it when it was written… or other pieces as well,
but have to just say… “Well, there it is!” I can never recapture the mood so to
speak. “Water-Putting” is a neat little journey of humor and truth as is “Its
Complicated.” That last one I never remember writing… It just seemed to appear
before me already written… I don’t know…
Q. “They say no writer is ever born a writer, instead they
have a hundred lives before they begin to create.”
I agree. I was never a writer until middle age. In fact,
although a notorious book-worm, my grammar and spelling was so poor that it
drove my parents nuts! I guess I was always creative though… it’s in the genes.
My dad was a classical pianist and history buff. Mom was amazing artist and
painter of regional acclaim in Wisconsin. She produced thousands of oils,
watercolors, sketches, pastels, drawings, etc. So many varied styles and
explorations. Amazing artist… I think I got the creativity from her. That and I
am an only child, so I was left to entertain myself often enough. There was
always music and art in our house on the East-Side of Milwaukee. We had a
saying, or my parents did… “Bored? Go mow the lawn!” That could translate as
‘There are a million things to do and explore in life… Boredom is a sin.’
I first tried writing in college. I had an amazing creative
writing teacher… a gal who back in the day smoked in the classroom, looked like
a cleaned up version of Janice Joplin, and urged us to always explore. I loved
writing poetry. She hated it as it was awfully contrived, and she was right.
However, she found my creative stories to be very original. She said I knew how
to tell a good story.
But I never did anything serious with writing until after
both of my parents passed away. As a form of catharsis I wrote a long memoir
entitled ‘Up on Downer,’ referring to the street we lived on in Milwaukee, and
a play on words. Yikes… it would require a year of editing for subject and
consistency if it were ever to be publishable, but it taught me about writing,
especially the voice, and how important it is in relaying a feeling or a mood
underlying a subject.
It wasn’t until a year or so after starting ‘Classical
Angler,’ that I sat and re-read some of the pieces I had written and realized
they had some promise. What I lacked was freedom. The pieces that failed were
too contrived again: too methodical. The works that sang were less constrained.
I began to find my voice or voices. I began to write with confidence. That was a
long process, and I still struggle. However, producing something that can be
read and enjoyed is the most fulfilling thing I have ever done. I spent much of
my adulthood for some reason trying to be a business guy… to prove something to
myself… from Information Technology to retail management and everything in
between. Funny if we find ourselves back at our own roots sooner or later. I
guess writing makes me happy, and that I am thankful for, even if the process
of general acceptance can be naked at times, and people don’t read in depth
anymore, the creative process has to come out. I write for the few people who
will appreciate it. I feel lucky to be able to create.